On April 6, Demi Lovato released the last part of her four episode documentary about her addiction struggles and near fatal overdose in July of 2018. Prior to the overdose, Lovato had been filming a different documentary during her “Tell Me You Love Me World Tour”, but it was never released. This documentary was Lovato’s way of explaining her fight through addiction, along with her explanation of where she is at in life now.

In the first episode, it detailed how life was before the overdose. 

“Anytime that you suppress a part of yourself, it’s going to overflow at some point,” Lovato said. “And that’s ultimately what happened to me in a lot of areas in my life and it was what led to my overdose, for sure.”

Lovato has been struggling with addiction since she was 17, but at the time of her overdose she was six years sober. She described how, while on tour, she was suffering from depression while also struggling with an eating disorder. 

“There’s just so much pressure as a female in the industry to look a certain way and to dress a certain way,” Lovato stated. 

This episode was heartbreaking to watch as it was evident that Lovato enjoyed being a role model and felt like she had let down her fans.

Episode two talks about the actual overdose and the circumstances behind it. Her former assistant, Jordan Jackson, was the one who discovered her on July 24, 2018. 

“She wasn’t really moving, she was drooling, so I called the head of security to tell him that she wasn’t waking up and she wasn’t responding,” Jackson said.

The rest of the episode is listening to Lovato’s family and close friends talk about their reaction to her hospitalization and the seriousness of her injuries. Lovato had three strokes, a heart attack, and brain damage from the strokes that resulted in blind spots in her vision, all due to the overdose. She also reveals that on the night of her overdose, she was sexually assaulted by her drug dealer. 

In episode three, Lovato discusses the aftermath of her overdose. She decided to get all new management and went to a rehab center in Utah to try and help get over the hump of the disease. She also talks about her struggles with relapsing back into drugs and alcohol which ended up with her contacting the dealer again 

“I wanted to rewrite his choice of violating me. I wanted it now to be my choice and he also had something that I wanted which was drugs,” Lovato stated.

This episode had a more hopeful ending to it instead of a sad, melancholy attitude. Lovato and her family are finally feeling that they are towards a place of peace and acceptance, instead of struggling with the overdose.

In the final episode, Lovato discusses how helpful quarantine was for her mental health. She says that she was able to spend time with family and that helped her trauma immensely. Her then boyfriend, Max Ehrich, also quarantined with her, which led to their brief engagement in July of 2020. The ending of the documentary was Lovato making the decision to cut off all her hair as a symbolism of her newly pronounced sexual fluidity. 

“I’ve had a lot of lives, like my cat, you know, I’m on my ninth life and I don’t know how many opportunities I have left. It’s interesting. Life ebbs and flows, life is fluid, and I’m fluid and that’s all I know,” Lovato said.